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So today is one of those days….lol I feel better than yesterday. I got through most of the day and I felt like I didnt accomplish what i wanted to do. I wanted to spend time with Katelyn and remember her and think about how positive she is for me, but I think I got scared and I couldnt get myself to concentrate…towards the end of the night it began to hit me and I couldnt get myself to fall asleep. My grandmother called me and told me they went to visit Katie at the cementary and I just lost it. I needed someone to talk too. And as most of you know Damien and I are still on that 2 week break thing, so I was trying to not talk to him…but then I thought about it- and I needed him there. So I texted him and just told him I was struggling a bit with things. He called me 2 minutes later, and I am so thankful that he did, because he made me laugh and we were able to talk about things that helped me get my mind away from being so afraid to let go. It meant so much for him to call and be there for me…..that makes me hate this  stupid break even more…but I know he needs it and he appreciates it, but its still hard.

I will officially be an Auburn Graduate the 4th! I turn in my paper for my internship and thats it! I cant believe its over, its really scary to me. Now im having to pack all of my things and move back to Birmingham- part of me is excited part of me isnt…lol Im stressed about finding a job and I really dont want to move back in with my parents to be honest, it wouldnt be smart for me to get an apartment without some type of salary coming in…lol.

As for my diet, Im beginning to crave all the bad foods, I had TCBY last night which was AMAZING….I treated myself. But I think I have been doing pretty decently so far, tomorrow is a weigh in day so I hope I lost a few more pounds!*fingers crossed*

Hope everyone is having a great day!