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I couldnt wait to get up this morning, because Saturday’s are my weigh in mornings for the week. No clothes on, just me and that scale….and the tally is……1 pound….1 pound?! how can that be….I am kind of disappointed ….I mean I was expecting 2 pounds but not only that, my goal feels so far away…Im wishing my clothes will fit better already and everytime I put on my clothes I feel dissappointed. I know I need to be patient, especially with harldy working out because I have just been working so much this week, all I have wanted to do when I get home is sleep, and not to mention how rediculously hot and humid it is outside….Im trying to be patient with everything but its hard…

I cant believe Im going to be an Auburn graduate in 2 days!….wow…Time has just gone by so fast, and it is so scary…..

Im missing Damien, I hate this break…I hate not talking to him..and Im going to be going back to Birmingham next Tuesday and its hard to think that I may not even see him when im there…lol its even worse when Im right down the street…:( I feel my insecurities trying to come back the more this break goes on, its like something inside me wants to believe theres something not good about him, maybe its just the fact that im not used to having someone treat  me good…I just want the insecurities to go away..