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So Im new to this…and I am super excited because I have always had a very difficult time discussing my weight, especially with the people who are closest to me, but I am trying extremly hard to get over it. Im 22, about to graduate and really not sure what I want to do with my life. I have been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half, and just like every relationship we have our ups and downs but I just seem as my insercurities have made it extremly hard for me to move on from my past allow me to fully realize that someone does care for me…

Im tired of reminding myself of the past, my ex boyfriend who I was with for over 3 years hurt me extremely bad and it was only 6 months before I started dating Damien ( my current boyfriend). which I knew it was too soon for me to start dating again, but he kept pursuing me and I really was ready to start my life again. I fell in love, something I didnt think I would be able to do and now im at a crossroads where my past is coming back and I just cant seem to let go.
Hes so different than me, yet he makes me better. Hes dated so many other people than I have, that I must admit it makes me jealous when other girls flirt or around because I guess I tend to compare myself to them…And the longer I have been with him the more involved we have become the more insecure I seem to get, in which I know I need to get myself back in shape becuase I need to feel better about MYSELF….its just frustrating because I know it takes time, but I just want the weight to fall off….